Sunday, July 30

Just read an entry on my friend's new blog, and I know I've gotta mention it here. Will post the whole thing here.

I've known this friend as a nice, frank and honestly down-to-earth guy, and it's really heart-warming to see a post like this from his new blog. Knowing him, I think he'll like everyone to take a read.

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I was reading a very meaningful post on a friend's, Cassandra blog and would like to share with everyone, especially if you are facing a sudden setback in your life.

"On intentions and uncertainties. On knowing the uncertainties, and choosing to ignore it.There is the knowledge that no matter how intent you are on marrying someone, there always lurks the uncertainty. Uncertainty that he may not be the right partner, that he may fall for someone else, that you may fall for someone else, that accidents may happen and you may lose each other, that parents may disapprove, that you might get sick of each other, that future is unknown and anything can happen.

That “intent” does not relate to just marriage alone. It relates to anything. An intention to do/achieve anything! Maybe that bachelors degree that everyone wants. Maybe you might get side tracked and get your education informally through road trips and guilt trips and such instead. Maybe you might decide that acting is your talent and your talent gets discovered and you get instant fame and you don’t need a bloody degree anymore! Maybe some rich old man falls for nubile young you and he dies leaving you an inheritance that will keep you more than satisfied for the rest of your live! Maybe you discover your sexuality and spend your life fucking as a living.

All I’m saying is that, no matter how intent and focused we are on achieving something, there is always the possibility of the unknown. Some people choose to put the unknown aside and just concentrate on their intent. It does not mean that they do not know about the unknown, it just means that they choose to ignore it.

It’s like, running really fast, aware of the risk of falling down and injuring yourself, but you still continue running because that it what you want to do. That is a short term metaphor. Long term wise, think of it this way: We are all going to die, the uncertainty lies in whether we die sooner, or we die later. But do we not all strive to make a better life for ourselves despite knowing the fact that we may die any day?"

I gave a comment on her blog like this:

"Hi Cassandra. I am Wei Lun from xinmin 4E1, Tan Wei Lun. Maybe you don't even remember mw ba but I happen to browse through Sin Guan's blog and visited your blog.

I just wanna let you know that I love this post cos it teaches us not to just blindly pursue a specific goal in life and to take a step back once a while to discover other beautiful things in life, cos what to are working towards so hard for might just disappear overnight. It’s a post with very deep meaning cos if you realise, like what u mentioned, this applies to every single thing in your daily lives and routine. Learn not to be overly persistent and grab onto anything too tightly cos nothing last forever, even diamonds can be destroyed.

With knowledge that your intent is always accompanied by uncertainty, we will have better mental preparation and able to ease the pain when any mishappenings struck us without warning. It enables us to recover from any setbacks because this is the truth of life and nobody escapes from this fact.

The important question after you know this fact is, how would you lead your life? How would you prepare to face any of life's uncertainty?" I personally do think through questions like this about life and how I will face them. It helps me to walk a fulfilling life and enjoy the real freedom, freedom to the mind. I am learning to be more forgiving, avoid arguments, love the environments, to appreciate every instance in life and most importantly plan for my future while not forgetting the Great Uncertainty.

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Posted by Isabelle at 10:02 pm

Saturday, July 29

Sian. I'm not so enthusiastic about the upcoming hall camp, mainly because I've already been through 1 camp, and that's enough to last me quite a while. Kudos to Ben who managed to survive through both school camp and sports camp, and is gonna brave through the coming hall camp, though I don't know which hall he's gonna be at. 10 or 2? Well, highly likely he'll be running both ways, but that's Ben.

Anyway, I'm supposed to be talking about me. I'm so lucky I'm not the GL, or councilor for the camp. It's gonna wear me down if I have both OGs to take care. I'm just a small programmer, you know, those roles where it's ok if you aren't around coz other people can do it too? Yeah. Those kind. I love those jobs. It's one of the ultimate slacker jobs. Heh.

Why am I so sian about it? Coz it means school is gonna reopen. And judging from my sucky timetable, I'm not gonna have a good time this sem, unless miracles do happen and I manage to change my timetable. On top of my timetable, I'll have to shift all my tuition kids around, and I'm really hoping everything fits just nicely. Otherwise, I'm kinda screwed both ways.

Sigh. The only happy thing about this coming year is my new room. It's clean, it's cozy (except for the peeling walls) and it's mine. Wahaha. I guess I'm too used to having a room of my own, so having this single room beats sharing a room with another. I wonder if I'll be able to maintain it though, coz I'll probably take a step back from extra-curricular activities, which means I might not do enough stuff to secure my room. Hopefully yes, but well, hard to say.

(Random thoughts inserted)

Oh ya, was noticing a lot of new people coming into NTU yesterday. In just a short (but not that short) walk down from Pioneer Road exit to Jln Bahar exit, 2 passers-by stopped me for directions. Well, it's the week before school starts I guess.

(Random thoughts inserted)

Will be going out with my sec school class for ktv and dinner. It's been a long time since I've seen a few of them. Wonder if most people are gonna turn up.

Ah well. Laters.

Posted by Isabelle at 11:05 pm

Friday, July 28

Woo. It's really a lazy friday. I just did my laundry using the new washing machine for the first time. Wow, finally the halls decided they need to change those old cranky washing machines. So yeah, I tried them out today, and I'm very pleased with the results. The problem is that I don't have those nice rails just outside my room like I had with my old room, so I'll probably have to do something about it.

Just did a last check on my old room. Freak, it's damn dirty. I can't believe I once stayed there. Oh well, hopefully the hall people will do something about it before they transfer the keys to the next tenant. Lol.

Laters.

Posted by Isabelle at 1:54 pm

I'm just settling myself into my new room. Cool, finally shifted into my new single room, and it's all clean and tidy and stuff like that. My old room's in a total mess. It's almost nearing the state of a pig sty. I'm so glad I'm moving out, and I pity the freshie that's gonna take my room. Lol.

Well, been quite busy trying to clean 2 rooms, so yeah, haven't been blogging these days, doubt I'll have time to blog next week too, since the hall camp is gonna start on the coming monday. Damn, it's gonna be another week-long camp. So lucky I'm not the group leader this time, or I'm so gonna die from fatigue.

Just went out for a long overdue dinner with Xin, Ven and Heli, though it wasn't really eventful. That Ven was on the phone for as long as I saw her, so we didn't manage to talk that much. Sigh. And she, who had planned this dinner outing, made us wait so long we went for a round of pool before we settled down on dinner.

Nothing much going on tomorrow. Most likely I'll be in hall doing some more sorting out of stuff. It's gonna be a lazy friday, I hope.

Posted by Isabelle at 12:36 am

Sunday, July 23

Woo.

It's been the longest blog drought ever since... ever since don't know when. Omg, I actually let my blog go dry. *thirst thirst*

Anyway, what have I been doing so much so that I neglected my blog? Let's see...

Well, my last entry was after I came back from SCBE camp. After that? I guess I slacked too much at home trying to complete those games I bought from Kuching. I didn't go back to hall too much, except for times when I had tuition in Jurong East.

Spent 3 days in JB relaxing off, having fun ordering room service and watching movies. Woo, not bad. I think for a 4-star hotel, the price we paid was way better than the prices you'll find in Singapore. Next time we want a chalet, we can always look at JB. Heh. Somemore it's a hell lot cheaper, and most likely we won't need to book beforehand. Just make sure we don't throw too much of a racket.

Stayed over at Zhihan's house on thursdays night coz we were supposed to make small souvenirs for our dear freshies. Hehe. Actually, the guys did all the work before the girls could arrive, so by the time we met them we were just there for supper at Geylang, and to write small notes for the freshies. Actually it sounds pretty weird for me to call the guys freshies, coz they are after all 1 year my senior. Argh, the weird things army can do to you.

Went to Sentosa the next day, early in the morning. Kinda funny, coz usually you don't reach the beach until around noon and you stay there until probably evening. On friday, everyone of us got to the beach at around 9+, played around a little, and we left at about 3. Funny huh? At least no one was fighting with us for the shower cubicles.

Came back home after that coz I was too shagged out, 1) because we slept only at 4 at Zhihan's house the night before, and 2) because we played in the water. I got very tired out after soaking in the water and playing sabotage monkey. Lol.

Yeah. Spent the next few days back at home slacking away. I'll probably be back in hall tomorrow to start moving into my single room. Woo. It's gonna take quite a while for me to move though, you should see the mountain of stuff (and it's not mine) piled up in my room. Sigh. I have quite a bit of my share holed up in my current room too.

Probably will know who are the peeps that might be staying in my hall this coming week.

Posted by Isabelle at 9:59 pm

Monday, July 10

Wow, it's been quite a long blogging drought. I sorta stopped blogging for a while due to camp. Argh.

Been quite busy with camps and all. Had a very long camp, in which my birthday was spent with all those freshies, plus a couple of seniors. Quite sweet, I wasn't expecting any cake on my birthday since it's so incovenient to get one, especially one without me knowing. Turns out Xin and James conspired behind me and popped out of nowhere with this big mango cake. Aww. It's been quite a few years since I eaten my birthday cake. Serious, no joke. My friends don't seem to like to buy me cakes. Haha.

Finally got my birthday present after scouting for watches for 2 months. Settled on this simple but nice swatch. Actually wanted a fossil, but the designs were really quite bad, so yeah. Went for a nice dinner at this jap restaurant, and of course you know who's footing the bill. Heh.

The camp was pretty fun. The best-looking guy in my group won the title of ever first SCBE king. Lol. But really la, there wasn't much competition. The rest of the guys kinda pale in comparison. The judges really base heavily on looks for the king and queen title. I mean, comparatively our king and queen basically did nothing much for the performance. Both of them just stood there and smiled sheepishly for the audience to see. That's all it took for them to win the crowns. Kinda hmm, but well, at least we know what the judges wanted.

I'm a little darker now after we went Sentosa on wednesday, and Andrew's mom mistook me for a guy while I was snoozing with my face half-covered with the cushion. I was damn sad. Sigh.

Watched World Cup finals yesterday. You know why I watched? Coz I gey kiang (act smart) go and bet 15 bucks in the singapore pools. 10 bucks on 3 goals, 5 on france. Damn wasted. France in the 2nd half should have scored lo, then I win big bucks. The odds for the 3 goals was like 4.5. Damn. But ok la, I betted in the name of fun, so I was prepared to throw money away. By the end of the 2nd half, after I tore my tickets, I snoozed on the sofa and missed the extra-time and everything else. Haha.

That's about all.

Posted by Isabelle at 2:40 pm

Sunday, July 2

Just came back from Geylang from all the dimsum we ate, so I'm really quite full, but think I'm gonna concuss any moment.

Went out for pre-camp this afternoon to meet all those freshies. Man, some of them really look good. Haha. It's kinda nostalgic to see them the way they are, crossing the next big step of their lives. Lol.

Anyway, had a bit of fun with them, then dinner at Pizza Hut before we split ways to go Zhihan's house to make a bit of our camp stuff. (I think I'm not typing coherently. Zzz.) Waited for the rest to finish their stuff before we went to Geylang for dimsum, sort of a celebration, no matter what.

Well, I'm glad almost everyone came, though a little sad coz the sick ones can't make it. Sigh. (I told you I'm not typing coherently.) Had a good time talking cock by the roadside, drinking barley, eating har kau and chee cheong fun. Yum.

Thanks guys.

I'm gonna snooze any time soon.